Shock, Confusion, Denial, Acceptance.
Last night, a drunk, yet respectable guy i know, came up to me and told me that i always underestimate myself. After the shock of this random statement faded, confusion took over. why would he say this? why would he tell me this? could it be true?i suppose, like when dealing with death, i went through the 4 stage thought process:
shock, confusion, denial, acceptance.
i had managed to convince myself, for a good 20 minutes, that this statement wasnt true. and then, like a brick wall, it hit me. I do underestimate myself.
i guess its true that i dont really expect anything of myself, because i dont perticularily like myself.
in this 40 minutes of deep, drunken thought, the wierdest thing wasnt that i wasnt surprised to realize that i underestimate myself, but that someone thought that i could do something better. be something better, and actually make an effort and achieve something.
i had a great insight last night. i now know that some people actually think of me as someone special... its a nice change...

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