Saturday, April 29, 2006

Shock, Confusion, Denial, Acceptance.

Last night, a drunk, yet respectable guy i know, came up to me and told me that i always underestimate myself. After the shock of this random statement faded, confusion took over. why would he say this? why would he tell me this? could it be true?
i suppose, like when dealing with death, i went through the 4 stage thought process:
shock, confusion, denial, acceptance.
i had managed to convince myself, for a good 20 minutes, that this statement wasnt true. and then, like a brick wall, it hit me. I do underestimate myself.
i guess its true that i dont really expect anything of myself, because i dont perticularily like myself.
in this 40 minutes of deep, drunken thought, the wierdest thing wasnt that i wasnt surprised to realize that i underestimate myself, but that someone thought that i could do something better. be something better, and actually make an effort and achieve something.
i had a great insight last night. i now know that some people actually think of me as someone special... its a nice change...

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