Do you miss my all time lows?

When i find my buzz of the week...day...whatever... its hard to feel good when im just me... im not eating, im not sleeping, and im not happy.

ive been here before. its not really a new or strange place for me. its just hard to get out of it... especially by myself.

i feel bad for those around me. im sure they think im crazy.
they cant tell by the circles under my eyes, or my shaking hands, that im not me. not really me.

im okay during the morning, for the most part. im usually still a bit buzzed. im hyper, and i cant seem to stop talking... about everything... about anything.
by afternoon i completely drop. no energy, not to mention im such a bitch.
by late afternoon im really feeling it. i start shaking, i get dizzy, and hot... thats when i remember that in reality i have no control over myself. im not strong enough, and i have been consumed by this mental craving.

i wish you were here with me now. even tho i know your worse off than me right now. i still miss you. its now that you would tell me to stop fucking up my life.
How I miss your ranting.
Do you miss my all time lows?